Scatterbrained
Here I sit, on duty on the ship, at an hour significantly past my normal bedtime and my mind is brimming with things I want to accomplish. I know I should be going to bed, but I don’t want to waste the time that I have right now with sleep. I know I’ll regret it tomorrow morning, and as soon as I post this I’ll be headed off to bed, but right now I wanted to accomplish at least one additional thing this evening before I retire for some sleep.
With deployment looming on the horizon, I am trying to set up a routine of tasks that I will accomplish each day for the ~180 days of deployment. It matters not where I’m headed, but more how I accept the journey and my reactions to the events that occur during that time. I carry a small notebook in my pocket to write down those occasional stray thoughts that pop into my head, but I find that when I carry it, nothing occurs to me to capture it on paper. I know deep down inside that it is the singular cause of my mind trying to wrestle everything at the same time, while accomplishing nothing.